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I'm so sick of it

Sick of all the drama

Sick of all the breaks and fixes

I just want some peace

Without emotional disturbance

A life with minimum amount of feelings

Where everything is so cold and calm

I don’t want to miss, love, care about, be angry at, or hate any one

Honestly every single time I trust, put my faith, or get so emotionally involved I get shocked by the disappointments I face.

Every day I try to hide my conflicts and my deep feelings, but i feel it became a try of forgetting instead of hiding.

Unfortunately late at every night I have to admit that I couldn't forget.

I started to believe that I'm deeply damaged person who has been left with too many scars no one will ever be able to fix or heal.

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